The prayer plants look dead in the day, but they come alive
and night and lift themselves. It is like lily pads in the air.
Talking with one of my teachers last January, Cheever, was
so gratifying that I forgot I was hungover. When the conversation was over I
was still hungover.
An advertisement before a music video is another music
video.
Dinner with my parents and Brianna, learned that my mom got
a tick in a New York state field and bedbugs from a dumpy hotel around the same
time that I, across country, got bedbugs, too. A dumpy motel. I slept in the fetal
position with my socks tucked into my pajamas and a hoody over my head. I still
got bit, though less than she. If I could choose, I would take those bites on
her behalf.
The more assignments I grade the more I’m convinced that
grades are toxic. Of course all teachers know this. I’m at that age when I’m
arriving at what older people always knew, when I’m like, Oh, this is what you
were talking about.
The pain of knowing that Morrissey will never layer his
vocals. (After hearing some jangly twee pop group on the internet radio at
Bowtruss coffee, where the people next to me were having filthy conversations
while I was trying to grade. God bless them, it being a free country, etc. and
sometimes home to Morrissey, too.)
Dreamed I was biking on a superior version of Chicago Ave.
It was 80s Chicago. Better signs, older stores. I recognized Henry Rollins from
behind. I know that crew cut and those blooming shoulders anywhere. He walked
into a camera shop. Old cameras with flashbulbs. Henry would do that! I
thought. I made a distinct choice not to talk to him. I try not to bother
famous people. Told myself, too, that I would not write about dreams, which are
insulting in their lack of coherency.
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